It's all complicated and sh*t, but it ended up where I can't play video games anymore. It's a dumb reason, but I can't believe how.......
boring(?) life is. I do school, I come home and. And what? nothing. I don't DO anything any more. I don't even feel like getting the TV remote.
Meh, it's dumb. I don't have any real life friends, so no one to hangout with. I guess I felt like I was accomplishhing (sorry for my spelling) something in video games. And I was, in some ways. My game where I put hundreds of hours of work in is no longer availble to me. I feel a bit betrayed I guess. I didn't just PLAY video games, I put my work and love into them. That's my thoughts.
Yes, please talk to someone, and do whatever it takes to get the help you need. I have never had depression, but I've had severe anxiety and panic attacks almost my entire life. I never got any better until I went to a psychiatrist and got on meds for my problem. And the only reason I decided to go to finally get help was because I ended up in the hospital thinking I was having a heart attack. Thank frick it was just a panic attack, but that made me realize I needed to get help. There is absolutely no shame in getting the help you need.
You need to talk to your parents about this, or at least someone close to you whom you trust, and you need to get help. If you do that, I can't promise you'll feel better quickly, and I can tell you it will be very hard, but you will eventually feel better than ever.